Bad cramps

I've never lost a baby before. Even though mentally I am totally fine with what happened to me this morning... emotionally I am still struggling with it. I only found out I was pregnant a week ago. I was excited! It only took 1 month of trying, and BAM. My hormones were strong, and I was feeling great.

As I was baking cupcakes for my son's 6th birthday this morning, I started having cramps. Blaming them on constipation, I spent a while in the bathrooms, but finally gave up and got into bed. When I felt better, an hour or so later, I knew something was wrong as soon as I stood up. Sure enough.... my body expelled something that looked like a bloodclot.

I immediately was thankful for the fact that I hadn't broadcasted my pregnancy to the world. The people who knew can be counted on 2 hands. The trickiest part will be telling my 6 and 7 year old. How do you tell a first grader that the baby is now gone? Especially when they didn't believe you when you told them in the first place?

We'll just try again in a few months. Yes, I'm sad. But, also very happy that it happened sooner rather than later.