the other 1%

The follow-up ultrasound was yesterday. I was expecting the worst, and that's exactly what I got. My little bean was the same size as 2 weeks ago (6w1d), but this time without a heartbeat. I'm so sad, yet at the same time strangely disconnected. The last time I would have random crying spells; none so far this time. All I keep thinking about, is whether something with me has changed. I'm a little older, but not old enough to cause these problems. I've had a Mirena IUD, which could potentially cause problems. Or maybe it's just chance. Statistics do say that 25% of clinically proven pregnancies fail. If that's the case, I should be good to go for 3 healthy pregnancies (which is just a tad too many for me). No matter the reason, all I can do is try again, and hope and pray for the best next time.